new borns

the annual cleaning process approaches quickly, and soon enough the anthems of the new years and subjective new "me's" shall ring along with the passing days of the new decade. for science sake cut the crap.

the reinvention of the self requires a realignment with new ideologies,  a reafication of all that was pleasant and noble while relinquishing all that was unpleasant and ignoble. such a manifestations exists only if the minds of those willing to truly deny the self bodily pleasure in effort to feed the soul.
as it may be evident, babies feel pain as the blind can look into the souls of others in order to judge one's fulfillment.

as the many have the understanding of an unfulfilled soul, only the few have knowledge of a fulfilled soul.

cleaning old skeletons in time for new years are purely new additions to old dilemmas left to die and become old.

οἶδα ὅτι οὐδὲν οἶδα

on the value of knowledge there is an understanding of the significance of value. appreciation for intrinsic values determined by societies that lack true knowledge of application. applying values based on misunderstandings of understandings of misunderstandings of the understandings of others is valued at levels resembling destructed towers: tall and gone.

to give value to items deemed worthless is worth noting as to give value to items deemed priceless is worth nothing.

as for me, I give worth to nothing and value to all. just as all I lack the necessary knowledge to place value on much, with the exception of life.

in the end she dies.

she had a little girl once. through both love and minor motions of dedication are children born. with great respect are the seeds of trees, for continuation and origination are, for most, ones in the same.

in life choices are made until their consequences are made legal to upkeep a certain cool factor, for the taboo is envied in comparison to their more politically correct counterparts. smoking earthy plants in legal fashions does not suffice the taboo urge in each soul, and urges of souls require the utmost respect.

for the legalities which aid in naming of doctors assist also in that of non-doctors, pharmacist and non-pharmacist, medicines and non-medicines alike. the amount of respectability among the former and latters exist within legalities, not withing politics.

doctors are deemed gods based on equal measures as non-doctors as demons. as legalities go, the gods are placed on pedestals for the demons to observe wearing green shades of evil.

as seeds are planted trees awaken dead. the measure at which respect is given are equal in measurement to those that lack such givens.

she had a little girl. and there went her respect for her little girl. through both love and minor motions of dedication are children dead.

6 years later

there was an ancient who spoke of magic. there exist many chairs, universally, all fitting into a form, a concept of what it means to be a chair. this works. all chairs fulfill the same functionality, allowing space  on long days to rest and think. this is a simple explanation of life. everything can be put into two groups: what it is and what it isn't.

there exist, still, the search for a point at which all the choices I made were wrong. this is not a chair. there is no room to sit, no space for thought. this is agony. after all completion there is still the thought of remorse, no...love. time moves forward only, not as matters of love.

the highest quality of matters of time are their ability to continue.
the highest quality of matters of love are their ability to continue.



(pause)

wait....i got the shits.

there exist this interesting power dichotomy in contemporary relationships. a man and a women, a girl and a boy, a provider and a providie, a giver and taker...right?

in a an effort to immortalize the value of what we have inserted is an action of over enforcement of portrayal, a "showing off" of how perfect our perfection is. in order to show others how worthy said togetherness is worth we perform a perfection more perfect than that of the most perfect. we lie.

we, if not obviously, is not to be understood to represent a collective decision, for the need for control influences the man/boy/provider/giver. the need to be envied exists from one who dare not wear green cardigans, for the stain burns more than concept of perfection itself. the taker needs not understand the ideal, just work harder to portray such perfection. how much perfection? enough to pay homage to the watching eyes.

the envious fall at the feet of perfection with eager hands and abs of hunger...let us shit on plates.

on proportions

sometimes too much will never be enough.

one more time??

the simplicity commonly experienced in life is the lack of overall control one possesses. the only provable truth of life is its given manner of continuing until end. in short: it goes on.

this would seemingly encourage one to take advantage of the few moments where control is applicable; making choices when they are available. but this, like the variety of control, is rarely the case.

in the times of choice, the common ideal is to flow instead of seize. as life passively passes we empathize in said flow, moving quietly alongside. the act of challenge posts itself as a...challenge. and that would require work, which requires thought (post-secondary), which requires care, thought (secondary), understanding, patience, self awareness, extrovert awareness, and thought (primary). is all that work really worth it?

for happiness, is there a path that requires no understanding, or does one need choice to be happy?